Cracks Along The Edges

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A lot of things have happened to me since I first started writing this blog back in October of 2016. For starts, I went from writing a handful of posts that year, to writing two posts per week for almost two years running. I had a live-in girlfriend at the beginning of this blog, to being single now as I write this.

You all got to read in more or less “real time” about my mother being diagnosed with ovarian cancer and her eventual death.

You got to learn about me, my “origin story” as it were, if you followed along with my twice weekly ramblings and rantings. My “story” is sprinkled all throughout my blog. You don’t want to take the time and read through everything I’ve written so far? That’s okay. I created a post for my patrons on Patreon that summarizes it all nicely. It will cost you money though. You want it, you get to pay for it like they did.

I created a newsletter and in the beginning I was writing individual emails every single day. It was great until it wasn’t. That caused me to burnout pretty bad, which is why I use my newsletter now mostly as a way to keep in touch with those that want to stay in touch with me in the event that I get deplatformed. What you are reading here you’ll end up seeing on the newsletter. So subscribe to that if you would like, or don’t. I won’t try and sell some shit from gumroad to you and I won’t sell your email address to spammers, scammers, or other nefarious sorts.

You have seen my beginnings with Masculine Geek here as well. I try and keep most of my stuff collected here as I’ve tried to keep what I do here and what I do there separate. Sometimes I have succeeded admirably in doing this, and in other cases I have failed spectacularly. There’s only so much time in the day and only so much creative juice flowing. I’m finding that out right now.

I’m spreading myself too thin. I’m burning out. There’s “cracks along the edges” in my life. So I’m going to take a break. I’m taking a break from the blog for the time being. I want to get through this whole stupid mess that we are calling “quarantine” before I’ll probably come back on here. My work life right now is demanding a huge amount of my attention and my energy and I’m struggling with coming up with new and witty things to say to you all.

I want to devote more of my time to making and editing videos and doing the “livestream thing.” So that’s what I’m going to do for the foreseeable future. At least until things settle down at work and sort of go back to “normal,” whatever that is.

What can I leave with you for right now?

I’ll leave you with this:

Women are great, but they are just women. They do stupid shit just like we do. They are not the be-all-end-all to life. They are just human beings. I know that may come as a shock for some of you, especially if you are going through a dry spell, or you’re fairly young and somewhat new to dating and relating in the 21st century, but I promise you, they “ain’t all that.”

Spend more of your time working on the things that you are interested in. Whether it’s health, wealth, or learning a new skill or hobby, do that instead of constantly chasing women around. Get a few of them under your belt if you haven’t, but you’ll figure out really quick that sex is like pizza. There’s no such thing as bad pizza, just some are better than others. Same can be said about women. Once you get to sex, it all feels the same pretty much. It only differs by degrees and those degrees are usually slight.

Your friends are more important than your woman. They will be there for you when you fall flat on your face or you get “zeroed out.” And you will get “zeroed out” eventually. Whether emotionally, financially, or otherwise, it will happen. If it doesn’t, you are either extremely lucky, or you haven’t ventured out into the world and taken any risks whatsoever. Don’t fuck up your friendships over a woman, ask me how I know.

Use your voice. I’ve said it before, several times in the past. Somebody has to come along to “carry the torch.” If I’m still here doing this when I’m 60 or older, than I have failed you and I have failed myself. There’s more to life than talking about game, women, and red pill topics. It’s called life itself. And it will blow by you in the blink of an eye. One day you will wake up and you will be 50 and you’ll wonder, “where did all of the time go?” Don’t let that happen to you. Get out and live. Go enjoy the sunshine. Go ride a motorcycle or something. Get off the internet and get out of your house.

I’ve heard some of the guys that I interact with in this particular sphere ask the question, “What happened to all the guys that were here before us? Most of them just disappeared.” That or they died. My take as well as many of the guys that I’ve talked with about this particular question is that our “forefathers” if you will, got what they needed from “this space,” and then went on with their lives. Maybe this is me wanting to get on with my life. I honestly don’t know at this moment.

Be authentic in whatever you do, especially on the internet. Don’t be one of these caricature asshole grifters. If “selling your soul” to make money is the route you go down like they are, I’m pretty sure you will end up broke and dead at the end of that road. And even if you don’t end up broke, you will still end up dead and nobody will have known who you really are. That sounds like a lonely existence to me.

Stop looking for somebody to “save you.” There is no messiah coming. The only one that is going to “save you” is yourself. You are your own messiah.

Stop bending the knee to women just so that you can get some ass. You won’t get it because she won’t respect you or be attracted or aroused by you, so knock it off. You’ll just end up being a simp and nobody wants to be around that, not even women.

I don’t know what it will take for you, because I’m not you, but have some self-respect. If you don’t respect yourself, nobody else will either. That includes women. Especially women. Be willing and able to walk away.

Last thing:

Let Them Burn.

If you don’t know what that means, either you are new, lazy, or just plain old dumb. Go read my blog, it’s in there and all over the place. Stop being a lazy fuck wanting someone to hold your hand and spoon-feed you like a baby bird. Stop looking for shortcuts and “hacks,” because in life there aren’t any shortcuts or “hacks.” You get to do this thing called life the hard way where everybody is keeping score, points matter, participation is mandatory, you’ll probably get less out of it than you put into it, and ultimately nobody gives a fuck whether you live or die. They have their own shit to worry about.

And if you think I’m being pessimistic and negative, all that tells me is that you don’t know me, and you probably never will.

At the end of the day, there’s two ways to look at life:


Talk to you all soon.


2 thoughts on “Cracks Along The Edges

  1. I hate to hear you are stepping back from writing. I’m more of a reader than a listener of podcasts, but I will listen to yours. I do get your need to streamline things. Look at my infrequency of posts… Good luck and I’ll be listening.

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    • This is just a short term hiatus to be sure. I’ll be back pounding the keys once things settle down and I get certain things in order.
      I love writing too much to give it up for long, so you’ll be hearing from me sooner than later. ūüôāūüĎäūüĎć

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